FOOD!

Something else I’ve been struggling with for a few years is eating. After my big crash into depression 3 years ago I did stop eating at the time. I just had maybe some yoghurt or something really small every other or 3rd day. This went on for several months until my friend found out and intervened basically forced me to start eating again. (Something I’ll always be eterally grateful for! She is a hero! ❤ )

It was a huge struggle to get my body to even WANT food again, at first I was getting nauseous every time I ate. Of course not eating is terrible for the body so I think one of the reasons I have had such a hard time dealing with my depression is because my body simply didn’t have the energy to do so. But whenever I ate my body felt terrible because it wasn’t used to eating anymore. But food was needed to even start to feeling better in the long run… It was a really really bad loop!

This has been a huge struggle and now 3 years later I managed to get to the point where I eat 2 times a day. I’m almost at 3 times a day but I have to set a reminders to eat the 3rd time because I don’t feel hunger so I usually don’t even think about it at all!

I still managed to put on quite a amount of weight tho during this process! I guess my body has been in starvation mode for so long and when I DO eat it’s usually microwave food. 😐 That’s not very heathy but better that nothing at least! x)

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